Sunday, February 20, 2011
I am turing on my lights!
We have all had those moments when you feel like you either have to sink or swim. Lately, I have felt that all I was doing was sinking. The last couple of years have not been kind to my family. We were faced with illness and death, the loss of a job, and coming very close to losing our home. Those things really take a toll on you. I have been looking back trying to figure out if I could have done anything differently. I don't think so. You roll with the punches and take each day as it comes.
I have struggled with depression and I am just tired of it! I rarely post anything that is deeply personal, because that is not why I started my blog. But, sometimes I need a venting spot and I guess this is it.
I have been feeling intensely emotional, basically crying all of the time. I have realized that it is not doing me any good! I have to make the choice to be happy. One of my favorite quotes from Harry Potter is :
"Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light."
I am turning on the lights! I am going to make being happy and living in the moment a priority. I am going to have a larger attitude of gratitude, and I have made the decision to go back to school. I gave up on my dreams, life got in the way, and I shut myself off. I realized that I am not doing myself or my family any good being this way.
If I am not living as fully as I can, how am I any good to my family? I am so thankful that my husband is supportive, when others are not. Without him, I would be totally lost.
I am thinking that my blog focus will be changing slightly now. I had kind of given up on my blog, because I just was not feeling that I could do it anymore. But, I am not giving up! I can not do that anymore.
Posted by LeAnn at 8:03 AM