Monday, January 9, 2012

Panic Attacks

Last year, was kind of a difficult year for me.  I have been struggling with depression for awhile and this past year was full of ups and downs.

The holidays are always an emotional time for me and I thought that I would be able to make it through the month.  I was wrong.   I started out the month doing really well.   But the closer to Christmas we got, the more anxiety I began to feel.    I worried over money, shopping for Christmas, and my pregnancy, which has been extremely difficult.  It is amazing how our minds make small things snowball into a giant monster that can't be controlled.

I was having more panic attacks and I was finding it more and more difficult to leave the house. But, all at the same time, I didn't want to be alone.   I would call my husband at work just bawling for no reason.  Something small would get in my mind and I just couldn't let go of it.

I am working through it one day at a time and though it is a slow process, I seem to be getting back on track yet again.   I am surprised that I actually still have followers, since I always start and stop my blogging.  But, hopefully, I will get back in the swing of it.